New Ramblings...

How do you know when you have grown up? This question has boggled my mind for a couple of months now. Friends would ask with each passing birthday if I feel older and of course I would say no…age is just a number!

However, in my quiet moments, I would look at my life and think to myself, “When am I going to grow up?” What does it even mean to be a grown up really? Paying bills? Going to bed early? Being responsible? First of all, I know a 15 year old that pays his own cell phone bill and he isn’t “grown up”. I know a 2 year old that turns in at 9pm and nope, not a grown up and I know a lot of responsible teenagers but they are just that…teenagers IN HIGHSCHOOL. So, that leads me back to my original question…What does it mean to be grown up and when am I going to get there?

Last night, I had this dream…
I was sitting in a chair and making a list. The list looked like this…
What grown ups do:
1. Wash their make-up before bed
2. Make their bed before they leave for work
3. Always wear pajama’s to bed (never a t-shirt and shorts)
4. Always has a means to buy a loaf of bread or milk
5. Grills a lot
6. Lays on the couch and watches TV before bed
7. Gets to work 15 minutes early
8. Doesn’t like to get head wet in the pool
9. Never talks about finances out loud

As I was looking at this, from over my shoulder came this voice and in almost disbelief this voice said…”Michelle, that is your MOM”. You know what? It totally is my mom. These are all the things my 36 year old mom did when I was 15/16 years old.

My whole life, I have been drawn to wearing pajamas. I have felt convicted that I have NEVER washed my make up off before bed and felt less than responsible when my kiddo’s don’t have bread for a sandwich and had no idea why. Now I do…

Michelle vs. Her mom!
It is so funny the revelation we get when we aren’t even looking.

I am grown up. I am the perfect grown up. My definition of grown up is playing on the water slide with my kids. My grown up is using hamburger buns for a sandwich cause my memory stinks these days. My grown up is washing my make up off and using this cool new wrinkle cream…not because my mother use to but because it is smart and keeps my skin young and the whole pajama thing….I am gonna buy me some new ones just because I wanna be grown up!