Like a book

My heart has been opened...like a book.
That's kinda funny because it took a book to inspire me to search my heart for truth. The truths about myself and the things I believe about myself and people and mostly about God.
What I found makes me ecstatic, scared, very disappointed and longing to know more.
I know that God loves me but I am not "in love" with Jesus, not the way other people seem to be. Warning: This takes me into the downward spiral of comparing my relationship with God to everyone else's. This I know so I have to be careful.
I have found that I shut people out. I am not talking about emotional shut outs. I guess it could be I just haven't went there in my heart yet. I just mean in the simple things like suggestions for my life. EX: I have people that I LOVE to be around. I WANT to fit in with. I long to get their advice, their wisdom. BUT, there are people that I don't really know. When those people come to me to "talk" or offer wisdom or advice I shut them out. I didn't do this on purpose. But, I did it. I have missed out on some awesome people. I know I have.
I have been redeemed. Oh, how I have been redeemed. When I learned what that means the freedom that I felt. I was going to share the definition but I think it will mean more if you look it up. Look up Redeemed in the Greek! AWESOME!!
I have passion. I have such passion. Sometimes it is misguided passion but passion none the least. I thought it was gone. I have passion for the underdog everytime. I have passion for the mistreated. I am learning how to express that passion I have without offending others and that is a BIG STEP but one that I am willing to take.
While typing this I got a call from a friend. A friend, who like me, is after a heart like Jesus. She had a word for me and it was this...Matthew 7:7-8...“Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened. She knows I have been asking and seeking. The word was keep asking and seeking..you will get what you are asking for!
I can't wait to see what the next few pages of this book hold. Day by Day God is turning the pages of my heart and i am loving what I find.

Well...We.Are.Married

The day was perfectly imperfect. It rained. My dress was ruined by my shoes. The pastor made a blooper during the ceremony. Jase was all over the place. Chris had hat hair. We forgot that Jase wasn't there and we had already taken half of our family pictures. BUT all in all I wouldn't have changed one thing.

A big thanks to Kristen Miller for the amazing cake.

Brittanyann Photography (Brittany Willis and Jacob Olson) for picture perfect photography.

John and Debbie Pennebaker for the delicious food and punch (not to mention the B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L set up).

Dawn of the Day (Dawn Frazier, wedding planner)for bringing it and keeping it all together.

All of those that helped out before, during and after the ceremony...
Jessica and Jared Fletcher, Donna and all the Senz, Taylor and Jennifer Harms, Kim Barnes, Sherrie Bilyeu(the ferns were really pretty), Larry and Cathy Rodgers for being an awesome Nana and Pa and taking care of Jase, My family for the great time we had on Friday night (STRESS FREE)!

This was absolutely one of the best days of my life.