Somedays you just gotta laugh!

So I don’t normally blog about my dreams but my good friend actually inspired me to do this. I know that I want to start a dream journal but me and writing with a pen doesn’t really make me all gooey on the inside so I think I will start here!

Here we go:
I was in our café at church and there were two people that appeared to be speaking (the man was dominating the room and the woman just kind of in the background). One of my friends was standing and watching our Pastor with a look in her eyes like “I was supposed to be speaking tonight”. We were all just sitting around and chatting. Well, our Pastor finally looked at my friend and said, “Is he here?” and she said YES so Pastor interrupted the man and my friend took the floor. She said, “If you want to see God look at the ceiling tiles”. Everyone started doing this but me. I laughed on the inside and said to myself, “that is the silliest thing I have ever heard”…God in the ceiling tiles? Really? Then out of nowhere this force started pushing me out of my chair. I fought it too. With all my might I fought it but eventually it won and there I lay on the floor LAUGHING uncontrollably. No one was looking at me or paying me any attention but there I lay on the floor laughing. That’s when God said, “If you would just do things the way I say the first time it would be easy”

Life lesson? YES…

God puts people in our lives to direct us. Sometimes the things or the people that God puts in your path may seem illogical or silly at times (like God being in the ceiling tiles) but they are there for a reason and being obedient is important. That doesn’t mean that you do or say EVERYTHING someone tells you too. By all means, use your own wisdom and the Holy Spirit will guide you but you might be surprised where God shows up!

I was so unique now I feel skin deep. I count on the make-up to cover it all. Crying myself to sleep because I cannot keep their attention. I thought I could be strong but it's killing me!

Does someone hear my cry? I'm dying for new life

I want to be beautiful, make you stand in awe! Look inside my heart and be amazed.
I want to hear you say who I am is quite enough. Just want to be worthy of love and beautiful.

Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me, fighting to make the mirror happy
trying to find whatever is missing won't you help me back to glory

You make me beautiful! You make me stand in awe! You step inside my heart, and I am amazed. I love to hear You say who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful.

The words above are from a song by Bethany Dillon called Beautiful. I remember the first time I heard that song and how much is resonated with my heart and how it was my heart cry. I wanted to be beautiful not only in God’s eyes but in man’s eyes as well...inside and out. That was about 5 years ago I think. I am proud to say that man’s eyes are not so important to me anymore but God’s on the other hand IS…I have learned that God only sees the beautiful in me and accepts and loves me just the way I am. I am worthy of so much more than I could imagine. Actually, I am worthy of all things I can imagine…WHAT AN INSTANT REVELATION!! Moving on…

Lately I am finding myself surrounded by teenage girls with NO SELF-WORTH and it saddens my heart. They are reaching out to boys to fill their God shaped hole in their heart. I know that this has been something that has been a world wide dilemma for years but lately it has been on my back door-step and my heart aches because of it. Just a few examples: I have a friend with a daughter that is 15 and pregnant (I bet she doesn’t get her own show on MTV). Her younger sister is having sex with a much older boy. Another friend has a 15 year old daughter that has been photographed performing sexual acts. The list could go on and on I am sure if people were real about what their kids were doing. How do we convince these little girls to respect themselves and see how much they mean to God? How precious they are? How worthy they are?

If only we could have gotten them when they were babies and SHOWN them how to love themselves, shown them what true love is. Only if daddies would step up and be the daddy’s they are suppose to be.

I am not one that harps on the wolves at the door but Mom’s…there are wolves at our doors that want to strip our precious daughters of their worth. BEWARE. Teach your daughters that God has crowned them with dignity and worth. Teach them that boys are predators (l love boys. I have two boys of my own but they have/will have hormones that rage). If they don’t have a daddy that will “date” them…YOU do it. Teach them that REAL men open doors. REAL men don’t honk and wait for you to come out. REAL men ask for dates face to face not via text messages. Teach them that not only will they fall in love 50 times they will also fall out of love 50 times before it’s the real thing. Teach them that TRUE LOVE REALLY DOES WAIT.

Teach them that they are beautiful on the inside. Teach them that when God sees them he smiles at who they are, who they have been and who they will become. Teach them that God sees their heart and knows their desires. GOD WILL FULFILL THOSE DESIRES EVERYTIME. God is love and God loves our little girls.